Idle Time and Quarantine Closure

Hello again! Long time no read, right?

Time seems to be moving astronomically slow and scarily fast, simultaneously. The pandemic days are all blending together, and I’ve stopped keeping tally. The weekends are flying by more quickly than they did before, and Fridays seem to be blinks apart from one another. I feel blessed to still be working and I’m trying my best to come up with creative and original content for my socials, but more than anything I’ve been dedicating time to reflecting about my life and the people in it.

Growing up, idle time was frowned upon in my home. We were encouraged to always be getting something done. The phrase “an idle mind is the devil’s playground”, still repeats in my head when I find myself squandering free time. As an adult, I can still acknowledge that poor use of idle time can result in making poor decisions, but I also can acknowledge that idle time can lead to you revisiting instances from your past. It can lead to you opening doors that were once purposefully closed. Or to someone else trying to open the door from the other side.

I’ll give you an example. The past few weeks I’ve had about 3 past friends, and 1 past love interest reach out to me. All of them were people I once cared for very deeply, and had to work to get over. It took a lot of self reliance and healing to let old things go, so you can imagine my surprise when I received those outreach messages after months/years of not speaking. I’m aware that if it weren’t for quarantine, I probably wouldn’t have heard from them. The abundance of time has caused everyone to think and reflect over past decisions.

For some of them, I responded back. We shared peaceful, encouraging words with one another. Got some closure, and even reminisced on some of our best memories. With others, I didn’t respond to their messages, because some things are better left unsaid. For all of them, I was surprised by their courage and willingness to reach out, even if it was more for them then it was for me.

Those conversations (or lack of), has made me think about if there’s anyone I need to reach out to? Are there any loose ends that need tying up on my end?

What about you? Is there anyone that you feel needs to hear something you have to say?